if we were to talk, you'd be in absolute shock, of the shit I would say

I am starting to feel like everything was a lie... how can he say he cared and loved me when he was always looking for something better behind my back? if he loved me and cared he would have never done that right? if he still loved me and cared like he says he wouldn't still be talking to those girls right? if he cares he needs to prove it if he doesn't he needs to tell me he doesn't and stop playing around with my head...